Strange Dream

Last night I had a strange dream.. it really emotionally hit me. As I came out if it in the middle of the night I was almost in tears... I had been in tears in the dream. My oldest daughter (Abbi) and I were packing up a cart, outside some place and she was asking me why Journey was closing, why no one else was taking my place as pastor.

No lie this is the real dream!

I was in tears as I said something along the lines of, "Well no one really seemed to care one way or the other."

This dream came to me the very evening that we had discussed catching Jesus Grander Vision, believing in the supernatural adventure of "Fishing for men" and how big it can be. This dream came at the close of a weekend where we had a huge fourth of July BBQ and baptized three people. We celebrated the "catch". This dream came after a LIFE Group discussion that was very free flowing and fresh and yet left me wondering how inspired, encouraged, amped up others were to see an even great catch for God be brought in.

I have to admit, I get even more jazzed up about reaching people, the more I see people far from God turn to Him and radically change. After weekends like this I feel a sense of urgency to make sure that we're really fishing as Jesus would want us to. That we're praying and expecting the supernatural to happen and our nets (churches, life groups) explode.

I feel so passionate, and I'm sure I look like a crazy dreamer at times like these.
Maybe that's why that dream hit me so hard last night. Maybe my own words, in my own dream are one of my deepest fears.
I have to care, I want to care. Half-way, lukewarm doesn't cut it with me.

I want to see what the disciples saw. I want to experience what the early church did. I want to to all of Olmsted County come to know Jesus as Savior..... that's 120,000 people.

So if you are one of those that look at me and say... "he's just a little to crazy about this God thing, or the potential of the church, it's people, our transformed life stories." All I can saw is, I'm sorry... I just don't to ever live out that dream with my daughter!